Ever since I did DMT...

[DARKSEID]

I can't tell if i'm really me, or i'm just pretending to be me. Ever since I walked out of that trip it's like I feel no connection to who I was before. I have all the old me's memories and thoughts, but it feels like i'm separate from them. I woke up out of nowhere and I was put into someone's life.

It's like when you have a dream that has its own story. A dream where you have memories and purpose and things you have to do that seem completely real.. and then you wake up and you realize that none of those things were true.

I can't tell if the dream was who I was before, or if I'm in the dream right now..

The trip itself was unexplainable... how do you explain stepping outside of reality, stepping outside of the physical, metaphysical everything we associate with conciousness into a state of unexplainable being.... Sometimes I find myself wanting to see it again... "God", The "realm beyond death", whatever "it" was that was not of this universe.. but after what happened the first time, I have no idea what will happen if I do it again.

I'm just gonna stick to mushrooms lol.. they're not as trippy as DMT....


Edit: If shrooms are peering over the edge of yourself and reality, then DMT is taking a time warping rocketship and loopholing lightyears and eons over it into unknown dimensions.

[Run]

A good buddy of mine, used to use often.

He just isn't grounded anymore man. Drugs in general are a pretty scary thing. And I'm not preaching a damn thing to anyone here (grown ass men who should know responsibility).

Limits.

I mean one I know spends so much time dropping acid that I had to hold his hand a bit through trips and I just shook my head. Walking around the street high as a kite.



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[spytactics]

What you have is called drug induced schizophrenia. Look it up

[SlySlickSmooth]

You're the man with the plan.

P.S. I liked Righteous better. Or have you moved on from that life?

[Hype job]

[Beercules]

I can't mess with anything like acid or shrooms. I tried salvia once and had a bad trip.

I'd rather pop a few Percocet and chill out.

[creekrat77]

If I were you I'd stop taking any kind of drugs cold turkey for a month and see if your perception and perspective of life changes. You also need to leave your DMT experience behind you and not let it influence your thoughts through a daily basis. My friends drop acid a lot and their experiences, much like yours, have largely been from the fact that they have no routine. You need to get out. Find a job, hang out with friends, etc. Just be active and stay moving forward. It's not easy, hel it's hard as **** but starting fresh and making goals to where you want to be at the current moment is essential.

[-MEGA-]

Stroke the furry wall

[El-blanco]

Sounds like that **** did a number on you. The trips are usually pretty short and don't have a lasting effect. People who do acid are often never the same so I suppose it's not out of the question that this might have had the same effect on you.

[The Dreamer]

Warren Buffett wrote the exact same thing in his annual letter to shareholders, but it was "Ever since I joined TMT."