RICKY HATTON admits he might never be able to watch getting knocked out by Manny Pacquiao inside two rounds of absolute mayhem.
The Manchester Hitman has revealed he is still trying to piece his boxing life back together after the worst ever defeat of his career.
Hatton was sparked by Pacquiao after being down twice in the first as he attempted to take the Filipino's title as the best pound for pound fighter on the planet in Las Vegas last week.
He admitted: "I've not watched the fight, I've not read a report and I've not bothered with the internet.
"I don't know if I will ever be able to watch it as for a fighter a defeat like that is highly embarrassing, the worst ever."
Hatton was speaking at length for the first time at the opening of his new gym in Hyde, Manchester when he admitted he is yet to decide whether to quit following the second defeat of his 47 fight career.
He added: "I know some people are saying I don't owe them anything but it is still embrassing and I have to decide what is the right thing to do.
"Not many people expected me to put together the record I have done, but two rounds.
"I have huge pride in myself and it's easy for people to say hang them up Ricky. it's going to be a great life out of the ring but you need final closure on these things.
"Whether I quit or carry on will be the must important decision I will ever make.
"Maybe I will say 'Come on Rick bounce back' when some are expecting me to retire, I don't know what to think. I am clutching at straws here.
"How I feel right now I don't feel that I ever want to lace on another pair of gloves but give me a couple of weeks and who knows what I will feel like after a holiday with my son Campbell and Jennifer."
Hatton has already planned for life outside the ring as a promoter and has secured a multi fight deal for his stable of boxers to appear on Sky TV.
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But even with a new direction to take, Hatton can't yet erase the memory of his shock defeat to Pacquiao and the mental torture he has put himslef through.
He said: "Getting out of bed in the morning is the worst time of the day for me. Needless to say I had a few bevvies in Vegas after a result like that.
"But once I had calmed down after a few days and reality set in I admit there were more than a few mornings when I woke up and cried.
"Four, five, six days after, I'd wake up and cry for what seemed like forever. I'd start pondering about the fight and that's when I'd start, it was the worst possible moments for me.
"I'd put off those thoughts by having nights out or having a couple of beers, those kind of things put it all at the back of your mind but waking up in the morning was the worst feeling ever.
"It's getting a little bit easier to accept now but I've only been back a couple of days.
"Showing your face in Vegas is one thing showing your face in your home town or in Manchester on a night out in something totally different.
"It's all new to me at the minute When I was in London tying up some business deals, I was looking to see who was looking at me.
"It's embarrassing as any fighter will tell you that they would rather be knocked out in the 12th round after a battle than getting beat like that against Pacquiao.
"I'm not saying my boxing career is over yet but I am not in a position to make a final call.
"None of my close family around me, my mum and dad or my girlfriend Jennifer none of them have tried to influence me one way or the other, they know the final decision will be mine and mine alone.
"If I want to fight on or I don't want to fight on - I will be making the call no one else."
Hatton is still running over the five mintes 59 seconds it took for his to get knocked out in his mind as he revealed: "My head was in bits after the fight and I am still in recovery mode. It all happened so quickly.
"I can remember the first two knockdowns coming so quickly in the first and although my head cleared a bit between rounds, it was not enough.
"I remember having a bit of success and I thought I had hurt Pacquiao but then he nailed me.
"I keep thinking that maybe if he didn't catch me that quick it would have been so different. There are ifs and buts that only I can answer when I am in a better frame of mind.
"It will get easier for me. I am sure it will. Right now though I'm devastated."
The Manchester Hitman has revealed he is still trying to piece his boxing life back together after the worst ever defeat of his career.
Hatton was sparked by Pacquiao after being down twice in the first as he attempted to take the Filipino's title as the best pound for pound fighter on the planet in Las Vegas last week.
He admitted: "I've not watched the fight, I've not read a report and I've not bothered with the internet.
"I don't know if I will ever be able to watch it as for a fighter a defeat like that is highly embarrassing, the worst ever."
Hatton was speaking at length for the first time at the opening of his new gym in Hyde, Manchester when he admitted he is yet to decide whether to quit following the second defeat of his 47 fight career.
He added: "I know some people are saying I don't owe them anything but it is still embrassing and I have to decide what is the right thing to do.
"Not many people expected me to put together the record I have done, but two rounds.
"I have huge pride in myself and it's easy for people to say hang them up Ricky. it's going to be a great life out of the ring but you need final closure on these things.
"Whether I quit or carry on will be the must important decision I will ever make.
"Maybe I will say 'Come on Rick bounce back' when some are expecting me to retire, I don't know what to think. I am clutching at straws here.
"How I feel right now I don't feel that I ever want to lace on another pair of gloves but give me a couple of weeks and who knows what I will feel like after a holiday with my son Campbell and Jennifer."
Hatton has already planned for life outside the ring as a promoter and has secured a multi fight deal for his stable of boxers to appear on Sky TV.
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But even with a new direction to take, Hatton can't yet erase the memory of his shock defeat to Pacquiao and the mental torture he has put himslef through.
He said: "Getting out of bed in the morning is the worst time of the day for me. Needless to say I had a few bevvies in Vegas after a result like that.
"But once I had calmed down after a few days and reality set in I admit there were more than a few mornings when I woke up and cried.
"Four, five, six days after, I'd wake up and cry for what seemed like forever. I'd start pondering about the fight and that's when I'd start, it was the worst possible moments for me.
"I'd put off those thoughts by having nights out or having a couple of beers, those kind of things put it all at the back of your mind but waking up in the morning was the worst feeling ever.
"It's getting a little bit easier to accept now but I've only been back a couple of days.
"Showing your face in Vegas is one thing showing your face in your home town or in Manchester on a night out in something totally different.
"It's all new to me at the minute When I was in London tying up some business deals, I was looking to see who was looking at me.
"It's embarrassing as any fighter will tell you that they would rather be knocked out in the 12th round after a battle than getting beat like that against Pacquiao.
"I'm not saying my boxing career is over yet but I am not in a position to make a final call.
"None of my close family around me, my mum and dad or my girlfriend Jennifer none of them have tried to influence me one way or the other, they know the final decision will be mine and mine alone.
"If I want to fight on or I don't want to fight on - I will be making the call no one else."
Hatton is still running over the five mintes 59 seconds it took for his to get knocked out in his mind as he revealed: "My head was in bits after the fight and I am still in recovery mode. It all happened so quickly.
"I can remember the first two knockdowns coming so quickly in the first and although my head cleared a bit between rounds, it was not enough.
"I remember having a bit of success and I thought I had hurt Pacquiao but then he nailed me.
"I keep thinking that maybe if he didn't catch me that quick it would have been so different. There are ifs and buts that only I can answer when I am in a better frame of mind.
"It will get easier for me. I am sure it will. Right now though I'm devastated."
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