im about to comit suicide. for those who remember last night what happened to me wit experimentin wit gay **** im not going to go thru that again. now i don even care if i forget about it or about anythin,, today was the most embarassin day of my life and i feel like dyin.today i come bakk from school thinkin about yesterday and what happened blah so i was ready to get home and rest and relax. i come come and my computer is not ther!!!! (not my comp its my old man computer as well house computer we share it) i say **** is it damaged just pefect bcuz i have nothing else to do in my house we dont have tv. i hear my dad call me to his little work room and theres the computer and i ask him what happened to the computer popa?
he tells me to sit down and im just freaked out bcuz i dont know what hes going to say. if hes going to sell it or not. i sit down and my popa says something like "have you been open and honest wit me about everythin son" and im like wtf dad what do u mean. he pulls out a paper WITH MY MOZILA FIREFOX HISTORY PRINTED ON IT!! (and all the gay streaming **** sites i visited yesterday) ****in **** i didnt even know you could do that or whatever the ****.
he tells me its the time to come clean and open and that he SUSPECTED IT. wtfff!! i'm straight and he tells me this b4 i explain i call him a "fa***" bcuz i felt disrespected and ****in ashamed. i told him it was for a friend of mine who didnt have teh internet and he was gay and i was helpin him. i was shakin so maybe it was obvous i was lyin. he exited the room disgusted and said he was thinkin of taking the comp away.
not only could i lose the comp now the only thing i have to have fun and distract myself (i don have tv or games) now my popa thinks im ****in gay and its ****in awkard now in the house. i feel sad i feel ashamed i feel very bad my concience and i just feel down. to make it worse papa said "dont bring any boys into this house"..
thoughts???????......
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