Story of Cus D'Amato and fear
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THE BLACK LIGHTS: Inside the World of Professional Boxing by Thomas Hauser
Pages 18-20
One of boxing's foremost authorities on the subject of fear is
Cus D'Amato, the legendary trainer of Jose Torres and Floyd
Patterson. A diminutive, outspoken man who has worked with young
fighters for most of his 77 years, D'Amato often looks back on
his own experiences to put the subject of fear into context.
"I remember the first time I got involved in what I call a
waiting fight," D'Amato reminisces. "In the neighborhood in
which I lived, which was a pretty tough neighborhood, you got
involved in fights all the time. Whenever you got angry, you
fought or you lost respect. Under those conditions you didn't
think about being frightened. You replaced fear with anger. But
it's different when you have the experience of waiting, an
experience I had once. I lived in an Italian neighborhood, and a
few blocks away there was an Irish neighborhood. I never used to
have trouble with the Irish; I got along with everybody. But
then the neighborhoods had some trouble, and both sides
said, 'You bring a guy and we'll bring a guy, and they'll fight
it out. Instead of both gangs fighting, we'll have two guys
representing the neighborhoods.' I was 16," D'Amato
continues, "and the Italian guys chose me. I wasn't mad at the
Irish, I wasn't mad at anybody. But three days ahead of time I
knew I had to fight this big Irish guy at nine o'clock on
Saturday night. So comes the night of the fight, I didn't want
to fight because this guy never did anything to me, but I got no
choice. All the Italian guys and I go over to the street between
the neighborhoods, and wait under a big street light. We got
there, maybe five minutes to nine, with eighty or ninety guys,
and the Irish must have had a hundred but their fighter hadn't
shown yet. I sat down on the curb, and I was thinking to
myself. 'How the hell did I get into this mess?' To tell the
truth, I was scared. All my life, when I got mad I'd fought. I
was fighting grown men when I was fourteen, but now I'm
saying, 'Jesus Christ, what's the matter with me? I got to be
crazy to do this. The next time some guys try to get me to
fight, I'll fight them first; I got nothing against these Irish
fellows.'" D'Amato's eyes grow larger, his face more animated,
as his tale progresses. "Anyway, I'm sitting there, really
sweating. I reached up, felt the sweat on my forehead, and
figured it was blood, but it was only sweat. Nine o'clock comes
and the Irish guy isn't there. Quarter after nine, the Irish guy
isn't there. Nine-thirty, I'm still waiting, and all the time
the waiting is getting worse because this guy is gonna be there,
and I'm gonna have to fight him. Finally, at ten o'clock, one of
his buddies comes and says the Irish guy is scared. He ain't
showing. It was the happiest moment of my life."
Fighters are the most exposed athletes in the world. During a
fight, the crowd observes every twitch and movement. Still,
spectators rarely see fear in a quality fighter. "That," says
D'Amato, "is because the fighter has mastered his emotions to
the extent that he can conceal and control them." But whatever a
fighter says, the fear is there. It never goes away. He just
learns to live with it. "And the truth is," D'Amato
continues, "fear is an aspect to a fighter. It makes him move
faster, be quicker and more alert. Heroes and cowards feel
exactly the same fear. Heroes just react to it differently. On
the morning of a fight, a boxer wakes up and says, 'How can I
fight? I didn't sleep at all last night.' What he has to realize
is, the other guy didn't sleep either. Later, as the fighter
walks toward the ring, his feet want to walk in the opposite
direction. He's asking himself how he got into this mess. He
climbs the stairs into the ring, and it's like going to the
guillotine. Maybe he looks at the other fighter, and sees by the
way he's loosening up that his opponent is experienced, strong,
very confident. Then when the opponent takes off his robe, he's
got big bulging muscles. What the fighter has to realize,"
concludes D'Amato, "is that he's got exactly the same effect on
his opponent, only he doesn't know it. And when the bell rings,
instead of facing a monster built up by the imagination, he's
simply up against another fighter."
Enjoy..
NOTE: No copyright infringement intended.
THE BLACK LIGHTS: Inside the World of Professional Boxing by Thomas Hauser
Pages 18-20
One of boxing's foremost authorities on the subject of fear is
Cus D'Amato, the legendary trainer of Jose Torres and Floyd
Patterson. A diminutive, outspoken man who has worked with young
fighters for most of his 77 years, D'Amato often looks back on
his own experiences to put the subject of fear into context.
"I remember the first time I got involved in what I call a
waiting fight," D'Amato reminisces. "In the neighborhood in
which I lived, which was a pretty tough neighborhood, you got
involved in fights all the time. Whenever you got angry, you
fought or you lost respect. Under those conditions you didn't
think about being frightened. You replaced fear with anger. But
it's different when you have the experience of waiting, an
experience I had once. I lived in an Italian neighborhood, and a
few blocks away there was an Irish neighborhood. I never used to
have trouble with the Irish; I got along with everybody. But
then the neighborhoods had some trouble, and both sides
said, 'You bring a guy and we'll bring a guy, and they'll fight
it out. Instead of both gangs fighting, we'll have two guys
representing the neighborhoods.' I was 16," D'Amato
continues, "and the Italian guys chose me. I wasn't mad at the
Irish, I wasn't mad at anybody. But three days ahead of time I
knew I had to fight this big Irish guy at nine o'clock on
Saturday night. So comes the night of the fight, I didn't want
to fight because this guy never did anything to me, but I got no
choice. All the Italian guys and I go over to the street between
the neighborhoods, and wait under a big street light. We got
there, maybe five minutes to nine, with eighty or ninety guys,
and the Irish must have had a hundred but their fighter hadn't
shown yet. I sat down on the curb, and I was thinking to
myself. 'How the hell did I get into this mess?' To tell the
truth, I was scared. All my life, when I got mad I'd fought. I
was fighting grown men when I was fourteen, but now I'm
saying, 'Jesus Christ, what's the matter with me? I got to be
crazy to do this. The next time some guys try to get me to
fight, I'll fight them first; I got nothing against these Irish
fellows.'" D'Amato's eyes grow larger, his face more animated,
as his tale progresses. "Anyway, I'm sitting there, really
sweating. I reached up, felt the sweat on my forehead, and
figured it was blood, but it was only sweat. Nine o'clock comes
and the Irish guy isn't there. Quarter after nine, the Irish guy
isn't there. Nine-thirty, I'm still waiting, and all the time
the waiting is getting worse because this guy is gonna be there,
and I'm gonna have to fight him. Finally, at ten o'clock, one of
his buddies comes and says the Irish guy is scared. He ain't
showing. It was the happiest moment of my life."
Fighters are the most exposed athletes in the world. During a
fight, the crowd observes every twitch and movement. Still,
spectators rarely see fear in a quality fighter. "That," says
D'Amato, "is because the fighter has mastered his emotions to
the extent that he can conceal and control them." But whatever a
fighter says, the fear is there. It never goes away. He just
learns to live with it. "And the truth is," D'Amato
continues, "fear is an aspect to a fighter. It makes him move
faster, be quicker and more alert. Heroes and cowards feel
exactly the same fear. Heroes just react to it differently. On
the morning of a fight, a boxer wakes up and says, 'How can I
fight? I didn't sleep at all last night.' What he has to realize
is, the other guy didn't sleep either. Later, as the fighter
walks toward the ring, his feet want to walk in the opposite
direction. He's asking himself how he got into this mess. He
climbs the stairs into the ring, and it's like going to the
guillotine. Maybe he looks at the other fighter, and sees by the
way he's loosening up that his opponent is experienced, strong,
very confident. Then when the opponent takes off his robe, he's
got big bulging muscles. What the fighter has to realize,"
concludes D'Amato, "is that he's got exactly the same effect on
his opponent, only he doesn't know it. And when the bell rings,
instead of facing a monster built up by the imagination, he's
simply up against another fighter."
Enjoy..
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